松井祐生（関川卓哉）｜Yuu Matsui（Takuya Sekikawa）
私がパンダになりたいと願うための自画像
作品解説
写真や映像、ペインティングなどを組み合わせてイメージを創出し、近年はVRや3Dをもちいたインスタレーション作品も制作する松井祐生（関川卓哉）。ある時、日常の中で強迫性障がいである作家が見せた挙動不審な様子を見て、「面白いね」と笑ってくれた人の「笑い」で初めて社会に存在していると感じたという。その体験から、謎の多い動物と言われながらも一挙手一投足が「可愛い」と言われる動物園のパンダのように、人々を笑顔にさせたいという思いを抱いた。現代ではスマホをなくすと「記憶喪失になったよう」と言われるが、自らのスマホデータ＝つまり自分自身をパンダの写真へと無差別に貼り付け「自画像」とした「パンダへの変身願望」を具象化した作品。
Yuki Matsui (Takuya Sekikawa) creates hybrid works that blend photography, video, painting, and more recently, VR and 3D-based installations.
One day, someone laughed and said, “That’s funny,” in response to Matsui’s visibly anxious behavior caused by his obsessive-compulsive disorder. For the first time, he felt seen—recognized by society through that unexpected moment of laughter. This experience sparked a desire in him to make others smile—much like a giant panda, whose every move at the zoo is warmly called “cute.”
Today, losing a smartphone is often seen as the equivalent of losing one’s memory. Inspired by this idea, Matsui used the data stored on his own phone—which acts as a record of his personal identity—and randomly layered it over images of pandas. The resulting work is a visual expression of his desire to “become a panda,” presented as a form of self-portrait.
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松井祐生（関川卓哉）｜Yuu Matsui（Takuya Sekikawa）
東京都出身。駒澤大学法学部を卒業後、2016年写真新世紀受賞を機に独学で映像/写真/ペインティング/3D制作を始める。近年はVRなども用いて作品を制作。幼少期のトラウマに起因する重度の強迫性障がいを告白し、忘れる事のできない記憶をウイルスに代替し、除菌することでトラウマの「代わりのもの」排除。不潔恐怖として日常に表層。精神疾患を背景に「パンダへの変身願望」「エンベロープ/ウイルス/スマホ」「ヴァンダリズムとしての写真」などをテーマに制作する。
Born in Tokyo. After graduating from the Faculty of Law at Komazawa University, Matsui began teaching himself video, photography, painting, and 3D production following his recognition in the 2016 Canon New Cosmos of Photography. In recent years, he has also incorporated VR into his creative practice.
Matsui has spoken openly about his struggles with severe obsessive-compulsive disorder, which stems from childhood trauma. In his work, he metaphorically replaces painful, lingering memories with “viruses” and attempts to disinfect them—an act of emotional cleansing and a way to cope with trauma. His fear of contamination affects his daily life and often emerges as a recurring theme in his art. Drawing from his own experiences with mental illness, Matsui explores complex ideas such as the “desire to become a panda,” “envelopes/viruses/smartphones,” and “photography as vandalism.”